Proud-ish

Barely ate today :) The amount of food ive eaten today would probably disgust most of you... but for someone who went from eating nothing to everything and now back to almost nothing, so fast? Its pretty good.

-No Breakfast-
Lunch: 8 samosas  (59 cals for 3, no fat, spicy)
Snack: Coffee w/ 3 milks and 2 sugars, grilled chicken on whole wheat bun
'Snack': 1 cup chocolate milk
Dinner: Whole wheat bun with condiments and cheese with 1 slice bacon (i work in fastfood..only thing 'good'), coffee again
Late night snack: green grapes, water, and three B6 metabolism boosting pills

Happy happy. My house is full of doritos, tostitos, pasta, fresh bread with butter... but im stayin away:) Time for bed.. gotta be up at 730 (havent done that in SO long).

Will dream of eating good food but i wont actually eat it:)
 Adios

Guess Who's Baaaack...

KnockKnock. Who's there. Oh, hey Ana. Been a while.
A little overview:
Had an ED since grade 6. Currently 1 year out of highschool. Passed 2 years ive slowly been recovering (aka GETTING FAT) my boyfriend of 3 years has kept me sane and somehow got me on the road to recovery. Lately ive been turning back to one of my old besties i left in the dust unanswered; Ana.

I joined MuayThai a year ago. I train almost everyday. I also eat everyday. I am a pig. Last summer i had a bangin bod, i'll admit that. This year... i just keep getting fatter. In a course of 5 months ive gained 10 lbs. Im wanting to lose 20 now. I can do this. I will get my willpower back. I will be size 4 again. Noone and nothing will stop me. Time to train my stomach again. Time to train my mind, again. Ill be skinny again.